i. cut. my. finger.

this is ridiculous, but it's happened.

i. cut. my. finger.

my. ring. finger.

woah this is just hard to imagine the pain you feel when something sharp has sliced you in a second.

it might sound exaggerated, but it is painful.

few weeks ago, well almost 2 months ago since i completed my internship, i started to love to cook. everything.  soup, chicken whatever, meatball, basically everything. i started to make some unrecognizable food with everything i have on my refrigerator. my experiment. i tried everything. it was mesmerizing to act you are an expert in certain fields. i enjoy it, so much.

i buy groceries. well, grocery shopping is one of my hobbies. i buy lots of food and something that i actually do not really need (because my dramatic as* mind would think "no one knows") so i buy a lot of things. one thing i never forget to buy is Yakult. it is like the most wonderful beverages I've ever tasted.

on Sunday, i started to think that i have to make a soup. chicken soup with some veggies inside of it (including broccolis cause it tasted splendid). i started to cut all of the veggies until i cut the carrot.  i was starting to peel off the carrot with the stupid knife until it cut my rinf ginger. shit happened. i was shocked. because i am not thinking about the bleeding, but i was thinking about the scar and importantly, bacteria. im scared that bacteria might went into my body, i do not want that thing to happen. 

so, i treated it with love. i hope it will get better. all i am thinking now is the scar that might imprint on my finger. IT IS FUCKIN MY RING FINGER OMG. MY LEFT RING FINGER. im scared that my wedding photo of me showing my ring finger with my wedding ring on it will look ugly.